Friday, January 15, 2010

Planting My Placenta, Planting My Dreams


I finally did it! I lovingly planted my placenta after storing it in the freezer for almost exactly 4 years! The timing proved to be just right, as only in this time in my life would I be able to fully appreciate the symbolism that imbued this experience.

While I was pregnant with Miran in the summer of 2005, I planted a baby Magnolia tree for him in our side yard. I contemplated the cyclic beauty of nourishing the earth with a tree, just as my own body was providing for the nourishment of my baby. For me, it was small way to give back to Mother Earth and to serve as a reminder of my sacred connection to the her.

Miran's birth was as natural and graceful as the nourishing Magnolia tree growing in my yard. I birthed the life-giving placenta, and once the cord was no longer pulsing, it was cut by my midwife and put in a safe place for me to take home and eventually give back to the earth. Little did I know it would remain encased in a styrofoam cup for four years in the back of my freezer.

January 10, 2010 I felt a calling to finally plant my placenta! The new year was so full of promising new hope for me, for my family and for the planet, I knew this would be a beautiful right of passage for the coming year. For the past five months I've been volunteering my time working on some green initiatives for the school district where my daughter attends school, here in Poway. One of the goals I have been working on is to eliminate the use of styrofoam trays in the elementary school lunchrooms. Currently, Poway Unified Students consume 8,000 styrofoam trays per day. Over the course of one school year, that amounts to 1,550,00 styrofoam trays! I have helped set change in motion and my goal is to get the district to switch to 100% recycled paper trays which can be composted or recycled in return. Great strides have been made, but there is a lot of red-tape to cut and awareness raising to do!

So, when I took my placenta from the freezer and realized it has been, ironically, encased in styrofoam all these years, I instantly thought of my campaign! As I pealed away the styrofoam I couldn't help but feel that it was sucking the life from the placenta. I could almost feel the placenta breathe as I freed it from it's captivity. Broken pieces of styrofoam, tossed into the garbage, never to be decomposed, or even baled (compressed)revealing this super-human membrane that was an integral part of the creation of life. To me, this moment foreshadowed the the passing of the old, destructive practices of our school district, and represents the birth of my dreams for a sustainable school district, and for a generation of children that will not allow their food to be served on a styrofoam tray.
I dug the hole under the tree and tossed some home-grown compost into it. I could almost feel the anticipation of the Magnolia tree roots as I placed the rich dark compost, overflowing with worms and grubs into it's foundation. I laid the placenta down with a prayer of gratitude and hope. As I covered up the cord with compost, I felt it was still connected to my body. Somehow, I know that this dream of environmental freedom is now deeply rooted and supported by the very thing that nourished and sustained us all as fetuses in our mother's womb. The cycle continues, the healing has begun, change is inevitable!

Baby Timmy's Birth



Beth was my student for at least six months of her pregnancy. She also took classes with Liza at the hospital, she was as stong as a birthing woman could possibly be! She labored beautifully and was a true BIRTH WARRIOR!

So on Friday, November 13th, I started feeling contractions but they
were only about 6-8 minutes apart at around 6am. I didn't really
think anything of it so I just kept my mind off, made breakfast for
Tim, cleaned the kitchen, and made some coconut macaroons for the
hopstial staff (just in case today was the day). About 1pm I noticed
the contractions were getting to be more like 5 min apart, so I
started keeping track more consistently and by 1:30 they were getting
to be about 3-5 min. Tim gets home and we head off to the hospital.
On the way there, I seriously didn't know what was happening as the
contractions were getting stronger and stronger, I yelled at him
because he was only going 65 mph, um he's never obeyed the speed limit
so why NOW? Hospital was only 15 min away, but it felt like an hour.
So we got admitted about 3:15pm and I was in the delivery room, in my
gown by 3:30pm when they did my first check and I was already at 5-6
cm. I was like FAB that's what I was planning on...because my goal
was to have a natural birth! By 4:30 it seemed I was getting
contractions about every 2 min, so they checked again and I was still
at 5-6 cm. I asked the nurse to give me an estimated timeframe and she
said I would think you can have this baby delivered in another 4
hours. But then the next hour was INSANE, I kept having contractions
one on top of each other, and I felt like I was in this out of body
experience...I'm not going to lie, but the pain was unbearable and I
thought how can I go on like this for another 3 hours? So that's when
I looked at Tim and told him "I'm sorry, but I'm going to ask for the
epidural, I don't think I can take this". He and my mother in law
being the wonderful people they are, told me there was nothing to be
sorry about and the most important thing is for me to deliver a
healthy baby.

So the anestetheologist comes in at 5:30 and starts performing the
lowest dosage. I was having contractions while he was performing the
epidural and keeping still was not an easy thing. As soon as it was
performed they checked me and I was already at 10cm!!!!!!!!!! That's
when I got pissed and said OMG if I would have known I was at 10 I
wouldn't have asked for the epidural! So I had to just get over it
and concentrate on what my OB was telling me. She said for me to
start pushing but they had to tell me when, because I couldn't feel
any of the contractions at that time because of the epidural. By the
way my OB wasn't even on call that day, but she made it my delivery
after seeing all her patients...she even had dinner plans with her
husband...so I told her "Dr. Gunnarson, I really appreciate you being
here and I will not make you late for your dinner reservation at 8pm".
I started pushing about 5:30pm and at 6:14pm, Timothy Michael
Gosselin II arrived!!! 7lb 6 oz 19inches. I was so surprised at his
weight but so grateful because I thought I was going to deliver a 10lb
baby because of the gestational diabetes. I am also grateful that this
baby granted my wish and labored naturally because I didn't want to be
induced. They had scheduled me to go in on the evening of the 15th to
be induced since he was a GD baby and was 1 week late.

Anyways, baby is doing well, he's so cute...he looks like his daddy
and I can't wait for all of you to meet him. I also want to give a
shout out to my yoga instructors Liza and Shelley and also to our
birthing instructor, Dianne...thank you so much for your guidance!

And to my girlfriends, thank you for all your love and support!

Love,
Beth, Tim and Baby Timmy